Yesterday...

Just yesterday
I got a burst of hope
When I picked up the phone
and called her

Guessing that she's grounded
I didn't bother to call earlier
But yesterday
I thought of something


She might stay in kumon
or not...
A ticket...
to see each other

Just to confirm it
I called
He gave us 3 minutes
and it was enough

Waiting for her voice
to go through my ear.
Finally heard it again
The sweet, gentle and soft voice

There's a bit excitement in her voice
And a bit of hesitation
I thought there was bad news...
That I might not see her anymore

I put down the phone with the last goodbye
A moment of silence
I can hear everything
My breath, my heart beating

The word "Yes!!" filled the room,
The surrounding room, the house
Everyone asked "What's wrong?"
They saw me looking at her picture with excitement

I give up...

I think...I should give up
No more worries if I give up
No more problems to think about
No more depths to worry about

...My depths?
I have a lot of them
Money, Sorries, Promises....
But I give up, I don't care anymore...

My promises...
Should I care?
If I did...
will the promises be accepted?

It's my fault anyway...
saying promises that I can't fulfill
now that she's gone...
no more chance of fulfilling it

Arts

This third trim we're painting with watercolor. Everybody hates watercolor aswell as me because i suck at it for the first time but now I kinda like it. I have two paintings that I'm proud of right now, they're not that great but I'm still proud of it.